in general i feel whole and recognize the good that fills my life. i feel blessed and fortunate and wish to celebrate who i am and all i have been given. it has taken many years of therapy, introspection and hard work to reach this point, but i have arrived here and it feels good. i've had my "crosses to bear", we all do. i accept them and look at what they have helped me to learn about myself and the world in which i live. despite all of this self acceptance, growth and acknowledgement of good in my life, i struggle! i fall! and i end up self loathing AGAIN! hating myslef because i beleive if sin exists, wasting your potential and god given gifts is among the greatest you can commit. i am here to gain strength from all of you. i am so encouraged by your persistance and honesty. thank you for sharing that. hopefully i will offer something postitive to you as well.