O Lord, You are my deliverer, my strength, and my source of courage. Teach me to look to You when I am in danger, when I am weak, and when the battles rage. I long to walk by faith in the blessed consequences of Your abounding grace, Amen.

I really need this prayer, because I still see myself slipping into sin sometimes...

Anyways, I applied for a few online jobs in freelance writing, blogging, and writing reviews. I hope I hear from one or all of them  Wish me luck on that.

I also got a great opportunity on my fashion blog over at Wordpress. An assistant to a up--and-coming designer was interested in MY blog! I'm very flattered and impressed. The site and the blog is legit that linked back to me. So I know it's not a fraud. She just wanted to add me to her blogroll. And my stats are going up on that blog...Wayyy better than Blogger.

I got AdSense on my Blogger site, but I don't know. It just ain't working out. I think I like my wordpress blog more. And I might create a personal one, that can't be seen from the public search engines, since my diary site is down once again

So let's hope to better things! *raises a glass of water*

Chanel xoxo

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Dear Lord, what a comfort to know that lions and fires are no threat to You. Lord, grant me the courage to do what is pleasing in Your sight, no matter who comes against me. When the roaring adversary attacks, may I trust in You. When fiery circumstances blaze, may I turn to You, for Your glory, Amen.

I was mad at my mom yesterday. She couldn't figure out why I was mad at her...She basically called me a lesbian just because I didn't find some man on TV to be attractive and couldn't come up with an attractive guy in Hollywood. Give me a break! How can I be a lesbian when I'm in a relationship with a great guy? And the real kicker is that she called (being a lesbian) a "problem". As in, "You have a problem then." I said, "What kind of problem is that?" "That you don't like men." So I just ignored her for the rest of the day. I still can't forgive her...Well, I can forgive, but I can't forget. I know that God wants me to forgive but she never apologized. She's just like, "I'm just being honest." I said back,"Well, people won't always like what you have to say." It's pretty pathetic.

This blogging for money thing isn't as easier as I thought. Why couldn't they tell me I have to have a high ranking with Google and have traffic? That's so impossible. I've never been popular in my life, how can on the web?

Take care everyone. Hope you're all doing well.

Chanel xoxo

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Lord God of power and righteousness, teach me to rely upon Your power, that the kingdoms of self and flesh might be subdued in my life day by day. Lord, I want to abide in You, so Your righteousness might shine through me in my daily situations. Enable me to cry out against the ungodliness of these days, while at the same time, pointing people to You for the forgiveness and righteousness they need to find, Amen.

I had a good weekend, since it was my birthday yesterday. I'm 23 now, which is weird since I don't feel like it...I feel younger! But I heard from my friends & family & it was nice  I love them. I also got perfume & jewelry as presents...Really nice stuff. And had icecream cake, yum!

Anyways, my dad had his heart surgery & is okay. Everything came out okay with that which is good. I'm glad.

Tomorrow is my day off, woo hoo! I get to sleep in & read a little at least.

My mind's been on my fashion blog today. I started it & I'm awaiting the approvals from Smorty & Pay Per Post. I'm also doing something with AdSense on Blogger. So wish me luck! It'd be nice to get some extra money in my bank!!!!!!

Anyways, I'll reply to you all tomorrow. I'm just going to accept a ton of friendship things. It said that I got a ton on my email  Take care everyone!

Chanel xoxo

P.S. I didn't give into porn tonight! YIPPEEE!!!!!!!!!

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Lord God of the impossible, many times I have been as helpless as Israel was before the impregnable fortress of Jericho. When I tried to knock down the circumstances by my own power or thought, I was defeated. When I trusted in You prayerfully, I was victorious. Please help me to patiently and persistently face such battles in prayer, awaiting Your work, by Your mighty grace, Amen.

My father called me last night to talk about Obama's win, which goes down in history and is very joyous....

Then he called back asking if I could fly out next week for his open heart surgery. I got too much going on with school still and I'm doing so well. I want to keep up with it...I feel bad but...

I'm not ready.

Chanel xoxo

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Almighty God, when the way is blocked before me and an army of circumstances closes in behind me, help me to stand by faith, looking to You to open a way. Lord, I want to follow You, asking You to lead me where my enemies cannot go, in Jesus' name, Amen.

I'm sorry but these past two days have been crazy...It's been hard for me to get online lately since my mom keeps wanting to use it. I swear I need a laptop!

But anyways, things have been going okay...Going through some financial difficulties & hoping & praying to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I may have an opportunity to have a fashion blog & get PAID for it. But I really need to check out the site first before I do anything. It'd be nice to do something I love and actually get PAID for it

Anyways, I did vote yesterday & I am happy with the outcome. I believe that big changes are coming our way...Never doubt a person's race, belief, or age. I just have to deal with the fact that my co-workers are serious McCain supporters. Even most of the members! It was a tough weekend at work where I had to deal with this black woman yelling at this guy who said something about black people. Being of the African American descent, this was difficult for me to bear. But that's not why I voted for Obama. I just didn't agree with McCain's views on the economy and the war...I believe that he is too old and that we need a new voice for this country. So I'm very proud to be an American and one who is part African American. It's time for change.

As for my grades on my projects & exams I got...
Research paper on law & ethics: 85
Exam on law & ethics: 95
Microsoft Word project: 98

I still got a 4.0 GPA!!!! Woo hoo, go me!

I was searching around for stupid stuff the other day, although it was no big deal, it was still a time waster. I need to learn how to NOT waste my time...Although I wasn't acting out per se, I was still close to it. And I've been so busy and tired that I haven't had a chance to pray to God and do my Setting Captives Free work which I plan to do tonight.

Anyways, take care everyone. I will get back to you soon.

Chanel xoxo

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Lord God of eternity, as I alternate between the battles and blessings of life, help me to view the future by faith. Remind me that Your everlasting purposes can guide and shape my temporal circumstances, in Jesus' name, Amen.

I swear that these prayers were spelled out for me day by day. Anyways, I got my Word project fixed! Thanks to my lovely and patient computer nerd of a boyfriend  He helped me figure it out...First off, I was using Microsoft Works not Microsoft Word for my project. I guess that's a big difference. (I think Works is for the kids to use.) But I hard a hard time using Microsoft Word and I didn't know why...My trial was expired a year ago and I never entered the product key. So once that was entered, but now that's about to be expired too...So I'm going to try to download the Microsoft Word SPS pack today. Even if it takes 4 hours on my computer. I won't be needing it anyway. But before I do it, does anyone know if that expires as well? At least I finished my project and handed it in today  I've also finished my research project recently, which I shouldn't do so bad on...I did cite Wikipedia as a reference, which I hope is okay. I just found what I was looking for when I typed in the question at Ask.com! At least I'm not plagiarizing!

Now I have to deal with my father today. Like I said, he wants me to come stay with him next week but I have too much going. Too many projects and such. And I gotta vote here next week, not there! I'm not registered there. I can't bring all my books and school stuff to...That's just too much for the flight and the airfare is crazy expensive right now. I just know that I'm not ready to see him and spend time with him yet...It's now his turn to give me my space for when I'm ready.

Anyways, take care everyone and have a nice and safe Halloween!

Chanel xoxo

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O sovereign Lord, I bow in faith to Your perfect plans and purposes. What a comfort to know that Your will cannot be thwarted by inappropriate schemes or established traditions. Teach me to view the future with faith in Your wisdom and Your sovereignty, Amen.

I think I had that for a title before. I wouldn't be surprised. I had a 6-hour long headache yesterday. Or probably longer. It might have been a migraine, I'm not sure. But it really sucked!!!!!!!!! I felt so sick to my stomach too  So I slept in & didn't bother going to my first few classes today...Even though it's extremely IMPORTANT for me to figure out this Word 2007 crap! Everything's against me...Not working with me. *Sigh* Even the things you gave me to try, which I really appreciate. I hate not being able to afford broadband. Blah. So I'm trying to get it off of Limewire right now & hopefully that'll work.

I think that I'm just stressed out about all these projects & essays & what not with school right now. I hope it doesn't take a toll on me...At least I got my research project done & handed in today. That's a good feeling

Take care everyone & I'll be sure to respond back to you all soon...

Chanel xoxo

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Lord God, the only true and living God, I regret those times that the world has drawn my attention away from my heavenly homeland. I cry out to You—please anchor my heart in heaven above, that I might thereby please You in my pilgrimage here on earth below, Amen.

Lord really needs to give me some strength today because I am stressed beyond belief. Especially with this darn Word project. I don't know what to do. I have no way to get Word 2007. I'm going to have to talk to my instructor about this. This really sucks because I'm stuck. I don't want to fail....I am usually great at doing this kind of stuff, I just don't have the right tools. This is like elementary stuff to me. Why couldn't they make it easier?

Now my dad wants me to stay with him next week. I just can't pack up and go! I got school and work to worry about, and I am worried about them right now. I got tons of things on my plate. He's never made an effort to be with me, why should I? It sounds awful, but he was never there for me...Why does he has to put this burden on my shoulders?

I just want to chill, figure out my school stuff and be kept to myself today. That is all. Take care everyone.

Chanel xoxo

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Father God, You have fulfilled so many promises for me here on this earth. I praise You and thank You for such loving grace. Still, my heart yearns for that which heaven alone can provide. Thus, I press on as a pilgrim, bound for my homeland above.

Well, this has been a crazy weekend of sorts. My father is okay...His test results came out normal thankfully. It's been very stressful dealing with that this whole weekend. I've been busy dealing with that and working of course.

School projects are kind of stressing me out too, but I'll deal. But I've got to go, I got massive amounts of laundry to do. Fun

I'll properly update soon! Just wanted to check in with you guys, God, and myself. Take care.

Chanel xoxo

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