DON'T FORGET TO WISH TINA (GODLUVSALL) A CONGRATULATIONS FOR 2 YEARS SOBRIETY!  :)

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Hi everyone.  I feel great.  I choose not to drink today.  It doesn't bother me to be around alcohol.  My husband is a social drinker.  Lucky guy doesn't have an issue w/ addiction.  Same w/ most of our casual friends.

We went to a party last night.  First major sober one since I joined AA.  I had no desire.  Of course I said a prayer on the way there.  I wasn't an oddball either.  I still laughed and had fun.  I truely enjoyed myself.  More so than when I drank.  Believe that one.

I know the results of that DRINK FOR ME.  IT'S MY CHOICE AND I CHOOSE NOT TO DRINK.  I like the life I have now in recovery.  It is so much better than what I had when I was drunk or hung over.  I am happy, joyous and working on free.  I believe my freedom will come when I fully let go of some crap.  In the process now...

Salute to growth in recovery.

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I'm pissed at my keyboard right now.  I was almost done getting something out in a blog and the darn thing gets lost.

Welp, so much for sharing.  I do feel better.  Got it out of my head anyway and just me and my HP are the wiser.

Sometimes that is the only battle.  Getting it out of my head.

So, instead of picking up cuz I'm pissed, (past behavior) I'm going to repeat the above sentences and realize I actually do feel better (new behavior).

Thanks anyway.....

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Today would of been so easy for me to go back to 'my old ways'.  Things are not going as I would like them too.  Boo-hoo.  So what is my first instinct?  Blame.  This is happening because of.....And for me anger usually follows blame.  And following anger comes resentment.  I find being angry is exhausting and a lot of work. 

So, before I acutally entertained blaming someone for things not going how I want, I had to remember......this may be what HE wants and how it's supposed to be.  I'm ok w/ that.  I will get through this w/ His grace.  Yes, I will be gracious and not pout like the selfish ALL ME girl I can be.

I WANT my sobriety.  I WANT the promises.  I WANT to let go.  I'm letting go......I cannot control people, places or things.  I'm learning to control how I react to them.

With the grace of G.O.D. and AA I'm growing in my recovery and way of living.  :)  I love God and AA!  They both have carried me so far.

Thank you everyone for being on this site.

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I try to avoid looking 

forward or backward, and 

try to keep looking upward.

-Charlotte Bronte

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For me to be peaceful today, I need to work on keeping my thoughts, words and actions in harmony.

I don't have a desire to drink today.  I also don't have a desire to live DRY.

'GIVE GOD WHAT'S RIGHT-NOT WHAT'S LEFT.'

I can feel when I'm not living right.

My challenge today is to be harmonious w/ my husband.  If I think it will, speak and act as it will, than it shall.

They say the hardest place to continue practicing the 12 step principles is at home.  And for me this is so true.  Recently we both started working the same shift.  (We've been on sepereate shifts for 12 + yrs.)  Now we see each other every night instead of just weekends.  WOW!  Did we have the perfect arrangement or what?  I'm just kidding.  It was challenging and lonely.

Be careful what you pray for and be ready to accept it!  I laugh every time I think of that now.  It took me a whole week to realize I didn't thank God for answering my prayer for my husband to work days.

I really see how selfish and ungrateful I can be.  Especially towards those who love me.

So for today I pray my thoughts, words and actions are in harmony.  I pray that I portray an acceptance of the changes surrounding me.  I am exactly where I need to be.  And I pray that God shall remove my resentment and anger towards this change.  This is what I prayed for!!!

I would like to thank God for my sobriety and the change in our family's daily schedule.  I may not be as graceful as the kids or spouse, but I truely am grateful....jd

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