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Well Im 34 years of age; I reside in Baltimore, MD. My drug of most relevant problem is alcohol and opiates. The DRINK is gonna kill me and any other drug will just bring me to the drink, so i cannot put any chemicals in my body, nor do I want to. I have a sobriety date of 8/3/2009 which as of right now Im ok with because Im right where I need to be,(becoming ok with) due to my failed attempts to quit, So like we say I didnt have enough pain and I needed more. I am getting what i needed to come to this state of mind again I have been without sobriety for over 4 years since my (what I thought the last round, 90 day rehab, jail, halfway house) initial recovery only to be thrown away by the selfish self-centeredness that comes back so quickly without GOOD ORDERLY DIRECTION, which was there for my taking somehow I shut off from the source. These reasons why dont matter anymore because all they are is an excuse and I cant excuse my actions any more. I have a now obtained a sponsor and am accountable for my actions. I hope to use this as a source for strength. I am not here to hook up or fraternize am in a serious relationship. I cant change the things Ive done nor things done to me but I can stop them from happening again, and thats good enough for me.Im sure this may change but right now its a welcome thought,and its all i need.
Good to be back, thanks for any support, Tim
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Great message thank you just what i needed to hear, amazing what happens when the growth begins again ,,,Have a nice day ;))
