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Just another day to begin....

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54 years old
Abbotsford
Canada
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WORKING STEP:
Step 3
PERSONALITY TYPE:
Helper
ORIENTATION:
No Answer
JOB:
Other
RELIGION:
Christian
ADDICTION:
Promiscuous Sex
SEEKING:
A Safe Place
MEMBER SINCE: 04/27/2008
LAST LOGIN: 12/16/2009 12:39:16
MY RATING: 0.00

1960-NOW Rock, Classical, BLUES...
tHE STONES, LED ZEPLIN, CCR, ELP, ELO, MOODY BLUES, TRAIN, JANICE JOPLIN, MOTZART, BETHOVAN, HANDELL,
etc...
Contemporary Christian

THIRD DAY. CASTING CROWNS. CHRIS TOMLIN, VINEYARD MUSIC, MERCY ME,.. AND THE OLD HYMNS

The Bible

poetry

a bit scary mysteries...


Guideposts magazine

internet blogs.... magazines

etc@@@@@

The Passion of the Christ

Gone with the Wind

Atonement

the Notebook

and others

"street-hiking" lifting my arms in the air and Praising God for all that is around me...

listening to music.. lately especially Christain contemporary rock.

Writing poetry

Drawing and painting



finding new friends

helping ohters

04/27/2009 13:15:19
02/28/2009 10:50:45
02/19/2009 11:15:07
01/18/2009 12:23:16
11/14/2008 13:58:02


Restoration of Self, Sex and Love Addicts







i was raised in a Christian home... but there was a lot of emotional trauma.. and some physical abuse... even some sexual.




My Dad died when i was 10. I am the only girl, and "Daddy's Girl", I worshipped my Dad.. when he died, i thought my world would come apart. For the rest of my life, it seems, i looked...for Dad...

as i said in a poem

...
You left me... Alone... to fabricate a fantasy of the man you could not have been, but you were, Daddy.

and i looked.. forever searching for a man to be you, any man to be you... to hold the little girl and wipe the tears away...http://www.pontauchange.com/Gallery/WELLCOLOR

I learned to matter... i learned that i could make men happy... and that i would matter... i also learned Shame... I MADE MEN BAD... I made them DO things or feel things, therefore i must meet there needs... http://media.photobucket.com/image/will%20you%20love%20me%

My struggle with the pain of addictive personality type (Borderline Personality Disorder with Chronic Depression) is on-going. My faith in my Higher Power... God the Father... Jesus, and Spirit... wavers at times... but is my Health.

Philipians 1:6 "being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.


Amen and Amen

FRIENDSHIP Pictures, Images and Photos

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Family...(hubby, 2 step kids, 5 grandkids!!!)






Family

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living in BC

Halloween at Oma & Opa/'s

















Fellowship with Believers.. (who admit their pain, hope, Struggles)

PURPLE~!!!




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Teddy Bears "one can never has too many bears!"
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anger that is directed at me in a Raging way...







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my emotional pain.

my addiction

hostile, irreverent people

abusive talk

anyone who hurts children!
!owning the Shame




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From: rterrymcintyre
01/10/2011 13:39:57

 Your Higher Power, is just that, yours, not mine or his, or hers, it is yours.
There was a guy at rehab with who used the Pacific Ocean as his HP because
it was a power greater then he was, someone else used the British heavy
metal band Judas Priest as his, you can use whatever works for you. It could be your
home group, the sun , etc. Only you can know what you see as a power greater
than yourself that will help you and restore some sanity to your life.


From: rterrymcintyre
01/09/2011 19:23:01
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A Higher Power Speak to me without words.
Hold me without arms.
Charm me without charms And I feel love Understand me without pity.
Smile at me with eyes.
See the sea from the city.
You never tell me lies.
Walk with me when I'm alone And listen to my cries.
Now I know that you know All negativity dies It's a choice.
I hear your voice.
Yeah, sometimes I don't.
You won't let me forget, And I know you know I won't.
I want to touch so many.
Where am I supposed to be? Where ever I am,
where ever I go, I know you're with me.



From: rterrymcintyre
12/10/2010 18:45:29

I CHOSE HEAVEN


A.A. WON'T keep you from going to hell.


Nor is it a ticket to heaven.


BUT IT WILL Keep you sober long enough


For you to make up your mind Which way you want to go!



From: rterrymcintyre
11/03/2010 13:32:37
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We have often looked to other people, places and things
for our answers and for our happiness...
We thought others could free us from pain, fear or guilt...
This has never brought any happiness
and in the long run we have not changed....

It is time to begin to trust that small voice within,
coming from the person we really are...
It is time to look within and begin to uncover
all that has been blocking us from our truth, from our Higher Power...
It is time to discover ourselves....


From: rterrymcintyre
10/31/2010 18:15:21




A lady recently joined AA and was asked by a coworker
"What it was like to be a Sober Alcoholic?"



She replied, "It's like being a pumpkin.
HP picks you from the patch, washes all of the dirt off
that you may have gotten from the other pumpkins.



Then He cuts the top off and scoops out all the yucky stuff.
He removes the seeds of doubt, hate, greed, etc.



Then He carves you a new smiling face and
puts His light inside of you to shine for all the world to see."





Joy isn't the absence of pain -- it's the presence of God.

Hope everyone had a fun Halloween..Terry




From: rterrymcintyre
10/09/2010 12:33:37


"When you clean your house... clean it as if God were going to be your special guest. Because He is. When you prepare a meal... prepare it as if God were going to be sitting at your table. Because He is. When you work... work as if God will be your customer. Because He is. And when you speak with another... speak as if you were speaking with God. Because you are."



From: rterrymcintyre
09/05/2010 21:40:34

Life is like a butterfly... The harder we chase it the more it
eludes us... The more we cling and hold on, the more we stifle
her beauty and splendor... True freedom is only seen through the

release of what we hold so tightly


From: flowerchildofjc
06/01/2010 09:11:28

Fathers Love Letter


My Child…

You may not know me, but I know everything about you…Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up…Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways…Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered…Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image…Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being…Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring…Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived…Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation…Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book…Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live…Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made…Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb…Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born…Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me…John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love…1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you…1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your father…1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could…Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father…Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand…James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs…Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope…Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love…Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore…Psalm 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing…Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you…Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession…Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul…Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things…Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me…Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart…Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires…Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine…Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager…2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles…2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you…Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart…Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes…Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth…Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus…John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed…John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being…Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you…Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins…2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled…2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you…1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love…Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me…1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again…Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen…Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father…Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…Will you be my child?…John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you…Luke 15:11-32


Love, Your Dad.
Almighty God










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From: Philip
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11/29/2009 10:51:38

STOPPING BY TO GIVE A LITTLE STRENGTH IN RECOVERY.



WE NEVER NEED TO STRUGGLE ALONE.




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