i'm a singer/key board player who reads music. I listen to jazz and gospel/everything else
Books
the Bible, Approval Addiction(joyce myers), codependent no more, Love Must Be Tough, Harriet Lerner, PhD; Dusty Miller, PhD and various historical romances
Movies
ladyhawk, somewhere in time, sleepless in seattle, breakfast at tiffanys,cat on a hot tin roof, some like it hot, matrix,all the star wars movies, 52 first dates, failure to launch, diary of a mad black woman, postcards from the edge,
Hobbies
collecting seashells on the beach,sleeping, shopping, playing, my sisters kids!
I'm paying off my business loans(if it freaking kills me!) Teaching parolees and working with addicts who wanted to kick my ass ended up taking a toll on my courage/health/enthusiasm-got myself laid off. I moved back with Mom n Dad to save money and focus on getting healthy and whole. I am recovering from a 15 yr marriage/trainwreck to a rageaholic/control freak. Determineed to not let my self destructive compulsive behaviors dictate my life... my family has had multiple tragic losses of lifes in the past couple years..also, I had to get a restrainig order against a stalker on the worship team with me at church!...got alot on my plate! my addictions are approval(codependency!), spending, hoarding, denying all of it, PTSD, sabotage! I'm a codependent workaholic(3 previous generations of em on both sides!) There ya have it!
Like
winning, justice being served, giving gifts, getting nature all over me, people who live authentically, leading worship, being my own boss, and teaching!- who KNEW?!
Dislike
being falsely accused, people rolling their eyes at me, allowing my fear to paralyze me, liars, fakers, cheaters, mean people
Your Higher Power, is just that, yours, not mine or his, or hers, it is yours. There was a guy at rehab with who used the Pacific Ocean as his HP because it was a power greater then he was, someone else used the British heavy metal band Judas Priest as his, you can use whatever works for you. It could be your home group, the sun , etc. Only you can know what you see as a power greater than yourself that will help you and restore some sanity to your life.
A Higher Power Speak to me without words. Hold me without arms. Charm me without charms And I feel love Understand me without pity. Smile at me with eyes. See the sea from the city. You never tell me lies. Walk with me when I'm alone And listen to my cries. Now I know that you know All negativity dies It's a choice. I hear your voice. Yeah, sometimes I don't. You won't let me forget, And I know you know I won't. I want to touch so many. Where am I supposed to be? Where ever I am, where ever I go, I know you're with me.
MS. DEBRA RINCON LOPEZ (Debrinconcita) from Portland Oregon CHECK WITH YOU SOON OKAY! I LIKE the backround, I been trying to set one up, but I keep messing up. SO I left it alone, just added some weirdo color's that don't belong together, IT WORKS, that's all that matter's right! BYE NOW!
Hey Jillpill, You don't know me but I'm a friend of flowerchildofjc's. My name is Debra Rincon from Portland Oregon. My name on the site is;Debrinconcita so I was writing a message for flowerchildofjc,& I seen your cute little AVATAR, your using for your PHOTO on this site. I Like it alot, I was reading your page too and It's sounds like we have some things in common. SO you have a person from your Worship Team stocking you? OOOHH I kinda have a similar thing going on? I also have PTSD, and I have been a controlfreak most of my life. I have been in therapy for 2 yrs now. I'm kinda getting some where now? I thinK LOL? I don't know? BUt, I hope that we can be friends. Or just talk sometimes. I have alot in common with you, it sounds like we could help each other or use one another for support. I won't keep bugging you or anything, I Mean once in a while, CAUSE I ain't on the computer all that much? I have like 5,000+ or more EMAILS, I stop for 1 day and the next thing you know I have too many to answer. WELL Anyways I hope to be able to check in with you sometime, OKAY, Later on, from a friend DEBRINCONCITA in Portland,OREGON USA. Bye Now Not forever!!!
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hey thnsks for the comment do i get to see a pic of u
