It was a good meeting - if a little veering (as becoming the norm). We talked about relaxation, chilling out, being laid back, being mellow, down time.
     I was supposed to write the topic on it Monday. This is the first time that I've had the consecutive minutes put in a row suitable for that purpose. So much for my relaxation. It is something I cannot do well.Busy has been a way of life for me for so long, I know very little else. Never having had a life before, it is still as alien as shoes on a snake to me.
    Without further babble form this workaholic, I'd sure like to know how others learned to do things that would be considered relaxation that didn't end up in a blackout...

Thanx,
Dennis

   I was in hyper mode because of 'Never feeling good enough' to deserve hanging out... I had things to prove to myself and others.... had to 'earn' time off-

yikes-

   BUT I also came into the rooms, with a huge yearning to feel safe and end the insanity- so I prayed for peace- and prayed-

I started my quest by allowing myself 'An hour to wake up ' in the morning.

Then I began inserting little Islands of Breath throughout my day-

for instance: not running away right after the meeting ended- ( which was my fight or flight response) not running right after cleanup-etc.

Then I gave myself permission to take a coffee / soda/ break, after work.

I was so ansy- it took awhile to get past 5 minutes-

Then I began inserting ' end of day' times- where I could quit before it got dark! (I was always running to catch up with something, even washing dishes!)

Everything was in increments- baby steps- and you have to maintain it daily...

Eventually I got to where it wasn't an imposition-

now I can actually deserve it.....and take a week here and there-

my goal is 4 weeks a year, one for every season-   Nia