Hi everyone,
I'm new to this space. I've been a codependant my entire life. Alongside that, I developed nasty eating disorders that began at the age of nine. I'm now 30 and they have never subsided for more than a few months at a time.
I was working closely with a therapist for nearly nine years, but recently, after months of not seeing one another, she said we could no longer work together. I knew she was right; we had grown apart and done as much as we could together. However, the timing was just awful! I saw her when I was so hopeless and helpless over every aspect of my life, that I needed the deep love, support and compassion I have neglected to receive from my family, most friends and partners throughout my entire life. She was no different at that moment. She told me when things in my life couldn't have looked worse. Thankfully, I'm now OK with it, but every day is a struggle.
I've attended some meeting over the last week. They have helped a bit. I also read Jocelyn Golden's book Learning to Be Me. And am now reading Melody Beattie's Codependent No More. Both very wonderful and insightful books.
Thank you for listening. I hope to create a safe haven of love, support and compassion between friends where each of us has the space and support we need to help one another heal in their own way.
Be well,
M
