Believe it or not I spent over 30 years not even realising that there was such a thing as sex addiction. I knew there was something wrong with me but I just thought that I was a particularly undisciplined and perverse person and hid it as best as I could. I tried everything, cutting off from my sexuality, being celibate, avoiding men, reading every self help book I could. But inside my head the fantasies and obsessions continued and I felt like I was another person inside to the one that everyone else saw. But it was having an affair that finally convinced me that there was something wrong because although I realised it was wrong there was no way I could stop and I didn't feel in the slightest bit guilty.
Thankfully I am in recovery now. Cara
