I am still trying to come to grasps as to why I am in this situation....what lead me here.  I have only been clean now for close to 2 weeks and am still trying to find my place in this world in regards to the proper treatment!  I have attended 2 NA meetings and both left me quite discouraged.  I need to find a place that I feel comfortable talking about my addicition.....so I can get better!

I want to be successful in this new adventure in life and that very thought is what scares me the most as I have so many people doubting me.  I want to succeed yet I don't know if I can........is that normal?

I hope and pray that this place can help me with so many unanswered questions.  I WANT to get well and I need so desperately to get rid of the doubts!

We each have our own cross to bare in life (this being mine)and being an addict has lead me here.  Life is worth living and my hope is that better tomorrow's are a part of my future!

You can succeed.  Yes, you are normal with all these feelings. When you lose an addiction, you become who you really are.  I drank for 20 years and when I got sober, I didn't know what my hobbies were, food was different, places to go changed, looking at life differently changed.  So, I'm still in search as to where I'm going and it's been 1 year 9 months!!  But that's OK.  Take One Day At a Time and you will find the way. Enjoy being FREE and CLEAN for awhile. No rush to find the almighty right now.

I support you and so does this site. So stick with it and DON'T GIVE UP!!!

Tina

HOLA!

WELCOME.I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YUO'RE THE MOST IMPORTANT

PERSON IN THIS SPACE,BECAUSE I BELIEVE THAT THE PRIMARY 

PURPOSE IN RECOVERY IS TO HELP THE ADDICT WHO STILL SUFER

I NEED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT THIS TOO SHALL PASS AND THAT

YOU DONT HAS TO USE AND YOU CAN FIND A NEW WAY OF LIFE 

ONE DAY AT THE ,SOMETIME AT MINUTE AT THE TIME,HOWEVER

THE MESSAGE IS HOPE AND THE PROMISE IS FREEDOM FROM

ACTIVE ADDICTION.YOU DONT HAVE TO DO IT BY YOU SELF WE

ARE HERE TO HELP YOU.JUST REMEMBER I CANT WE CAN.DONT

       USE NOT MATTER WHAT ~THIS TOO SHALL PASS

            &nb sp;                    LOVE YA SURRENDER TO WIN

Hi Pookiebear,
I remember well feeling the way you expressed when I first started in recovery. It's all new, a new language to learn, new people to meet, plus not having your drug or alcohol to help you cope with all this. The best way to become comfortable in recovery is to give it time. Just don't use, go to meetings, and/or share here, and try to have an open mind to this recovery thing. You sound as if you do have hope and that prayer is something you are open to doing. So, add to your program of recovery, living just for today and asking God, or whatever your spiritual source may be, for the strength to get through today without picking up. That formula has worked for me for 29 years now: one day at a time, prayer in the AM (help me stay clean today)and PM (thanks for helping me to stay clean today), attending meetings, cyber or otherwise, sharing my pain and fear, and trying to have an open mind. God bless and keep coming back,
Jan