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POSTED BY: misste on 11/27/2006 02:07:56


when i was an angsty teen i used to self-harm... i was never really into drugs although later in my college years i would get obliterated by drinking (every once in awhile)... but for the most part i'm not much of an alcholic or a drug user at all... but one thing i can't seem to kick is my addiction to sexual permisciousness and relationships in general. i love being in love. i hate being bored... though-- so since i started dating people seriously (since i was 18)... i've never managed to stay monogamous. never. there is just something that makes me want something else and i can never figure out what it is... for awhile i thought that i just needed to find someone else... that the person i was with wasn't good enough or that i just needed to find someone who would be a happy in a non-monogamous relationship. 

now that i'm older... finding this "happy non-monogamous person" to be partners with sounds more and more ridiculous...  mostly becuause i've been looking for that person and i don't know if they exsist. 

so i know that even though my exes weren't that great for me... that there IS something i need to work on. i mean i want to be able to have a healhty relationship in which i'm not loosing my interest and wanting something else...

i don't know i'm kind of addicted to my sexaual excapades... ((i mean i don't self-harm anymore, but this is a way of like hurting myself, but not taking responsiblity for hurting myself because it's like what someone else does to me)) or something. 




POSTED BY: byGrace on 11/29/2006 10:47:21


Thanks for sharing. This sounds so much like my wife's younger sister. She is addicted to the drama fo life, especially it seems the drama of romantic relationships. She did self-injury for a while also, but stopped, thankfully, after her first break-up. But she continues to get in one relationship after another seemingly for the attention and the drama of it all, not for something long lasting. Being older, it is harder to understand for me, so I appreciate your sharing so that I might understand it all better....

 





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POSTED BY: Jennyjen on 06/17/2009 17:24:23


I hear ya! I am a sex/love addict as well.  I also used self harm when I was in my early teens.  I was also physically and emotionally abused by my dad and made to feel as if my heart just emotionally broke from being so emotionally broken.  I wasn't shown love in a healthy way in any means.  I too started having non monogomous relationships at 15 and have truly never had a monogomous one-I am married now.  I though for a long time that I could control it myself and unfortuantely realized after I was married that I was powerless to this addiction.  I think the flip side to this is that so many people think its just another excuse or cop out.  I hate that!  I am actually starting counseling tomorrow for I odnt know if I dealt with many things I endured when I was younger.  But I guess we all have our stories.  For a long time, I thought I just didnt have enough will power....I didnt realize it was an addiction.  What I have realized about myself is that-I chase the "butterflies"-I look for romance when things get boring, but I go after people who arent emotionally available-which in tern makes me want them more....which makes me a co dependant.  I need to feel like I am helping people....but I end up hurting myself.....Please messege me if u want-it sound like we have similar experiences.

Good Luck

Jen





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