Turning our life over to the care of God as we Unnerstand Him

With in this step is so much work, And I though i had gone as far as anyone could by the time I had 5 years of recovery, and now at 24 year in recovery i am in a place were this step is the one i am hanging on to with every ounce of my life.

I was laid off ofrm work 2 months ago, thought i would finds a job making 30.000 in no time, hopng for better but economy as it is i figure 30.K was fair, low-and-behold working on 3 months and i have not found a job, and the last one is fighting my uneployment so my bank account is desperately low.

Crazy thoughts have run through my mind and i realized I was not as stable in my 3rd step as i once had been when recovery was so much a ongoing thing.

I don't think about getting high or drunk any more but life still throughs me a curve from time to time and i found my self thinking of alternitive ways to make money...like before i got sober.

Where is my faith that God is going to take care of me in this situation. I am ashamed to admit it.

Any how I was in a meeting and the 3rd step was the topic and it hit me hard.

So here i am once again letting go and lettng God.

More meeting and more insight..got to love it...lol

No I am seeing once again how important the life with-in is compared to the life with-out

It matters not what happens in the world around me so much as the on in side me. So if I loose my house ..so be it, life goes on and it is just a house.

God loves me and I will be fine, I know that God will not let any thing happen top me that I can not handle.

And as experience has shown me you can't find some thing new and better till you let go of the old and worn out.

Blessing to all and much love.

Are there no people visiting the Forum these days?

I would have thought some one would have stopped by at least once?

no much sense in attempting a dialogue if there is no one to talk to?..  :(

Zym -

    Not many seem to come to the forums, I guess & I've been a bit delinquent too.

     Yeah, turning things over to God seems to be an everyday thing for this drunk. But when I run into crap I can't do anything about, Turning those things over to Him at least lets me take care of what I can.

YF,

Dennis

Thank you dennis, ..I notice we here seem to have a lack of particapation...it is that this site just is not getting enough ppl, or what?

That is beautiful, Dokima...

Yes, Zym, I think that you have it right. The most important thing is to know God through all of this, and God's will for your life. And usually God surprises us with things that are new to us if we just keep on looking for the right thing. Hope that you find peace and joy through all of this...