may we take time out this morning to have a moment of silence and prayer for those who courageously gave their lives so that we may be able to live ours today. for those who came home and dealt with the aftermath of war. for those who are still abroad and are unable to be with their loved ones on this day. and let us not forget those who lost their lives in their own personal battle with addiction. as we enjoy our holiday today let us keep in mind that some gave all for us to be able to have that previlege. may we keep their families and loved ones in our thoughts and prayers.
Thankyou. I dont think my recovery is going so well. I havent told you but i am a complete love addict. Addicted to unavailable and subtly abusive and emotional damaging men usually disguised as spiritual gurus. Ive been communicating the last weeks with my last parnter of four years and talking of reconcilling and has been a mistake. i joined this site to get the strength not to contact or be contacted by my drug which is him and didnt do so well the first time around. When he feels me withdraw he contacts me and i havent so far been strong enough to resist and believe me its exactly like a drug, not only the high but the withdrawal every time. Shakes sweats tremors tears vomitting its unbelievable. I have also had drug addictions in the past. soooo wow im a bit disallusioned now that i see i am just moving from one addiction to the next and wondering how i will ever fill the void i feel inside in a healthy way. OR how to even do that. Ive just taken up cigarettes and fingernail biting and over eating. I guess i need to find healthy habits and learn that i deserve them.
Thankyou for all your encourgement and words of support.
