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My feelings today
Posted On 07/09/2010 16:41:22 by amomtomiah

I am currently 11 days without a drink. I go through these phases where I don't drink for months at a time and I feel great, I get all my feelings and emotions in order, then I fall off the wagon. And when this happens it feels like I have to start all over again. I feel defeated right now, and if it weren't for my son I don't think I would face this another day. But I do have my son so I am still here, and it's so hard. I feel like I have a thousand pounds of weight on my chest. I don't know why I'm writing this. I guess I just need some kind of outlet, being that I put on a strong show for my family. I don't even talk to my friends anymore, I feel so alone.

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From: KeithB
07/13/2010 17:39:22

Try the steps and the accompanying program. You'll feel the weight lift, we promise you!


luv

From: geefly71
07/13/2010 10:59:32

If you've managed to not drink for any length of time then you're already a winner, as far as I'm concerned. You'll probably be up and down for a while, but that's to be expected. Sobriety is rarely easy for me, but it has got easier. And by that I mean that I don't consider having a beer 20, 30, 40 times a day. I couldn't have stayed sober if it had continued that way.


There are no guarantees, unfortunately. If there were, it would be easy. But I will say this: At the end I was sleeping on a bench without friend or family; then I stopped and my life (though not idyllic) has never been that bad since.


And don't forget that we all messed up loads of times -  we only need to get it right once.


Wish you all the best  

From: Godluvsall
07/12/2010 21:17:01

Everyone here has great advice.


I'm here if you need to talk to anyone. I've come a long way and the AA promises do work.


It works if you work it.  Don't stop before the miracles happen. It does work out and you can follow the path that God has outlined for you and be happy again.


Tina

From: DennisS
07/10/2010 21:24:00

amom-


     Congratulation on 11 days. Getting sober is difficult. Staying sober without a support group and a recovery plan makes things feel near insurmountable.


     You have found others of like mind - now for a plan of action. Most alcoholics found that abstaining was not enough. We had to remove the reason behind the desire to drink...


Take care,


Dennis

From: byGrace
07/10/2010 12:11:04

Indeed, sharing is good and healing when done in a safe place. Thanks for sharing and may this just be the beginning of a new life, a better life for you.

From: wiledchild
07/10/2010 02:52:20

The power and life preserving fellowship where we our all tied together in one common aspect intimately knowing the frustration pain, feelings of humiliation degradation and emptiness of attempting to sttruggle against this parasitic way of life that we have lived and struggled with, even against ourselves. We intimately know each other as we have all faced the same demons, only to discover that alone is to be defeating only with support with others of the same ilk may we overcome and find the great victory in the life saving, life changing 12 step program.


Donot lose heart my friend . reach out and find support and a new life with us. Feel free to email me or contact just about anyone here we are here to help because in helping each other we help ourselves.

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