I have not written this blog for a while, well I have been busy.  And I wasn't sure if I had anything I needed to say.  Then it occurred to me, I didn't have anything negative to say so I felt there was nothing.

I have a lot to be grateful for.  The aftermath of the obesession is clearing away.  I seem to have emerged stronger from that and it appears that I am engaging much more in my real life and doing things I thought I could not.

It has been a rather stressful week, lots going on, lots of challenges, some present and future anxieties but through it all I have felt strangely serene.  I have a Higher Power who can supply my needs and if I don't get it then I don't need it. I am living life one day at a time, accepting whatever I can and can't do and it feels very good.  I have few expectations either of myself or anyone else but that is strangely liberating.

It is true that most often the greatest breakthroughs come after the greatest difficulties.  I feel I am beginning again on a new phase of my life, it feels different and new and there is a kind of cautious optimism creeping up on me.  I know I am still an addict and I am still capable of anything but right now, now feels right.

As I write this the whole of European airspace has come to a standstill due to a cloud of volcanic ash from a volcano in Iceland.  It seems Europe is learning to accept the things they cannot change

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