It's been ages since I've logged onto this amazing site, and just as long since I've blogged. Been so busy with school and work, I dunno if I'm coming or going half the time. However, it doesn't mean I have given up on my recovery by any means.
My life has changed dramatically since I quit smoking just a little over two years ago. (Whoa... Has it really been that long???) Since getting my GED shortly thereafter, I've attended every semester of college since January of last year. Moreover, I got my first viable job. I still do my freelancing work when I can, and sometimes I wind up having more on my plate than I can handle, but I get through it. I've been living independently for a year now, and where I used to be afraid of being alone, I have found how much I love having my freedom instead.
I admit that I sometimes struggle with the issue of being alone, as I miss what it means of being in a relationship, but I have found that God truly does look out for me. Other than that, I have found that when I stop acting and reacting emotionally, and put it in God's hands, am I truly blessed. It has been such an amazing experience that, "the Lord is my shepherd" (Psalms 23) has become my new philosophy in life, for God has been providing me with everything I need.
When I first came to this site, I still struggled with letting go of my fears... The slogan of Let Go and Let God is an amazing one! When we let go of trying to control everything in our lives, life becomes like a river and flows. It is up to us to let go and ride with the current.
Look at me now!
I guess this is what happens when you participate in life rather than avoid it! 
