As I write down m my inventory on sex, I look after the people that I lusted after. I remember that sexual desires did not interfere with relationships and that is only because I have autism. My social skills were limited and so I was never able to emotionally manipulate to have sex,
I wanted to have sex with the woman but I also craved woman loving other woman. It is lust that drove my heart but the desire to take action on that lust rarely reside in my soul. Deep down, I crave the relationship and friendship with the person than the sex.
To me, sex is the ultimate spiritual connection between two souls. And therefore acting out on sexual desires is limited in my mind, to the most inimate of relationships.
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