Still working Step 5. My sponsor and I agreed on a few dates but those didn't work out. The first meeting I asked to go to a meeting instead because I was so sick I couldn't talk - reading my step would have been extremely difficult. Our next date was this past Tuesday, but the snowstorm canceled that.
I've made a connection with an older man in AA. It's the first relationship I've established - men still really scare me, but this is positive. I checked in with him today because I headed back to MA earlier and wouldn't be attending the meeting tonight. We spoke for 30 mins.
I have a few numbers of people. Went to a new meeting Sunday night. Plan to go to a new meeting tomorrow. I wish I could go to a Friday night meeting, but early wake up on Saturday means I go to bed at the time the meetings start. Hoping to hit a noon meeting. The weather has been so weird lately - nice, then we got hit with snowstorms and slush. I'm hoping for a break in bad weather to head out.
Things are going okay. Been really rough lately, but I haven't picked up. The thoughts crossed my mind and I reached out to my sponsor. I told her the details, but only shared vague details at the meeting. It's personal, and related to trauma. I am feeling better.
I want to finish Step 5 soon.
I have 16 months on March 1. The last few weeks have been hard work and so worth it.
