I know its only one week but I feel in the road to soberity that one week is a milestone. So I have been sober of all my addictions for a week. I'm having a hard time today especially I am craving a beer but I have no acess to it at the moment. I think though that really the only reason I want one is because it has been crazy since I got here. My mom had a stroke two weeks ago and is doing better but there are things that need to get done that she can't do right now. So between being at the hospital and running around after were done at the hospital its been stressful and usually when I'm stressed I want to drink. I haven't allowed myself to be in a situation to drink. No beer in the house no going to a bar because I know soberity would be out the window. I'll have to look up ways to deal with stress. I'm not really that great at meditation because I can't sit still for long enough. But I know if I can't find another way to deal with the stress it will completely kill my soberity. So that will be a work in progress well I guess I'm a work in progress. I'm reminded of a songs chorus though when I think about the road to recovery "I've been traveling on this road too long. I'm trying to find my way back home. The old me is dead and gone dead and gone.
On another note I have been slowly telling the people that I'm close to in my life and everyone who I was hoping would be supportive is and those that aren't I knew they would be that way. I'm really finding out who my true friends are. After talking to the person who didn't understand that I knew wasn't going to I just don't even want to talk to him. I was supposed to call him later and I haven't yet. I got really busy and just lost the chance and now I'm on my way to bed and I don't really feel like extering energy to make an effort. I don't think I'm going to either. I have to surrond myself with the people in my life that will support and help me with my soberity and be willing to listen when I need to talk through some stuff. Not try to ignore the situation. Well church in the morning and then hospital and then other things going on. Have a good night everyone! I know that it was a long post so thanks for reading and listening to the things I had to get off my chest.
Nia
