Well all i have to say is that this has been a bad week. I have lost a very good friend of mine. Actually, he was a boyfriend of mine that I had dated in high school. I didnt even know that he was on life support for the past week. Then I get a ride from a woman every other day, over the weekend she had a seizure in her sleep. So now she is in the hospital. She almost died. She isnot doing well at all. And let 's see, oh yeah a friend of mine her daughter over dosed and died over the weekend. This just has been a very sad week. very depressing. I really dont have anyone to talk to about my feelings so its hard for me right now. I used to be able to go to the methadone clinic and talk to my counsleor well she got fired about 2 weeks ago. So i dont even have a counselor!!! SO its just been pretty rough. The only good thing is that I am clean. I guess I just realize how precious each and every day means to me because you never know it may be your last. I want to live each day to the fullest. I have been trying very hard not to argue with my son and just to get along with him all the time and to do things with him all the time. I dont know i just feel like something may happen? you never know? Its just scary to me. that is how i feel these past days.
