I'm currently recovering from my 18 hours of non-stop driving from Fort Lauderdale. Tomorrow I start studying for the California Baby Bar Exam; but what a ride. I still haven't been able to get some good study time. If I am not ready for next month, I'm going to delay the exam until June 2010. Better safe then sorry.

 My mother fell and broke her hip. I left Fort Lauderdale yesterday at 12:30pm and drove all night long. I arrived in New York at 6:30am today. It was a crazy night of non-stop driving. I went to the hospital today and my mother was on so many drugs that she was hallucinating. It was very sad and very depressing.

On a lighter note, the New York City Civil Court had sent me a letter making me an "officer of the Court" under the title Guardian Ad Litem. I will literally be assigned by the judges of the Tenant and Landlord Courts to represent tenants who cannot represent themselves either due to a mental or physical problem.

I also got a call and an email from a recruiter from a popular legal based employment company. They could set me up with a career job as a senior litigation paralegal until I graduate law school.

I know I can only succeed if I stay away from drinking. I'm scared now that I'm back in New York; but I plan on attending meetings daily and going to church weekly. I can only ask God for strength not to drink anymore. I still have time at 43 to make a good life for myself; but my time on this Earth is passing by fast. I must do it now. But the fear of falling back into drinking is always on my mind.

This morning, one of my roommates, an older guy, became very aggressive, almost violent, towards me about me entering the room to change my shirt. He said I woke him up. If my opening up a door to a shared room disturbs him then he should get a private room. Nevertheless, it didn't bother me too much because when I first saw him, I could tell he was trouble so I was prepared. I could see it coming; but I didn't know in what form. I should have requested another room at that time. I see it as the devil pushing my buttons. I told him "God bless him" when he told me "f..k you". He then tried to be nice; but I ignored him and left. I have a thick skin to people like that coming from New York; but I did contact the hotel administration and warned them about him. I don't want an innocent person falling into this guys hands. Also, I could never let evil distract me from God and my sobriety.

I just came back from the Twelve Step House. The meeting was in a bad part of town. The only meeting at 8pm was a biker's meeting. I tried staying; but I was extemely uncomfortable. I'm going to try some other meeting places. I heard there was a meeting on the beach. They sit on the beach and have their AA meeting. That sounds more inviting.

Got to run. I found a meeting 7:30 pm. Thank you. It's the Twelve Step House.

Thank you so much. It took me about an hour to research where all the libraries where, including the law library, laundry/cleaners and another gym. I've got my plan set now. I'm off to find the places and when I get back, I will research the AA meetings and hopefully I can attend a meeting tonight. By tomorrow, I should have my entire schedule set for the next two months.

Look no further...

205 SW 23rd Street

Entrance in rear alley

700 SW 10th

Drive & Dixie Hwy.

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Look no further...

205 SW 23rd Street

700 SW 10th Drive & Dixie Hwy.

God bless you. After arriving in Florida, I had a few days to rest and gather my thoughts and emotions. Tomorrow starts the crazy week of studying for the Baby Bar Exam from morning to night six days a week. Wednesdays and Sundays I go to church. Everyday I go to the gym. I tried to find an AA meeting in Fort Lauderdale or Miami and I wasn't lucky. I have the rest of the day to look again; but I'm certain I should find one. I intend to attend an AA meeting everyday once I find one here.

My roommate yesterday went out and was obviously drinking. He came back home with no money. Oh the many times that has happened to me. He's a christian; but I don't want to be around people who drink like that. I want a better life. I want a cleaner life. I want to be healthy and I don't want to feel like I'm dying anymore. I want peace in my life. And I know to do that, I must put God first.

     Tis a start. Sobriety is that brass ring we all grab onto, and there is lots of room for one more.Find an AA meeting, get a sponsor, live the steps and do that next indicated thing. It's worth it...

YF,

Dennis

YOu are not alone on this emotional rollercoaster. That's why God made AA, so we can be there for each other and help each other on this crazy journeyof life and recovery. peace

Jessie