Man, I suck! Only been straight 2 days over the past 8 weeks. Sporting track marks ought to go over well for the school's open house! I feel like a vampire without a day pass and don't look much better. All that progress, finally a good friend in my life, bills paid and on time, no bounced checks, closer with kids, not late for work, feeling good, looking good - I guess turning my back on all that because the dope man just happend to be at the Quik Trip at the same time two months ago makes sense. It has to some where, but I seem to be having trouble finding justification. But then again the text book says "baffling . . . insane disease" Oh - there is my excuse! I'm a drug addict and I'm suppose to act this way. I figure no one is going to up my standards any higher than I set them, Maybe I should raise the bar a little and try again.
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