I don't always have time lately to get on the computer at home and can't acess the site from work. To all my friend---you have been in my thoughts and prayers, even if I'm not online. Right now, I'm grieving the loss of my 15 year old dog, Bonnie. Early Wednesday morning (7/29/09), we had to take her to the emergency vet. It was so unexpected, she was her happy self just hours before we noticed something wasn't right. Apparently (per vet), she had congestive heart failure and the only humane option was to put her down. What a horrible decision for us to make. Our animals are our kids (we don't have any 2 legged ones). I've been through a lot of death of loved ones in recovery, but it is never easy. We've had Bonnie since she was about 1 year old--rescue dog! God, I miss her so much. I'll cry at the drop of a hat. I know it's a process and it will get easier in time. I'm lucky my boss is an animal person and didn't have a problem with me taking the rest of the week off (not that I'd be worth s**t anyway). I'm not looking forward to tomorrow--1st day back. I work with some great people and I know they will mean well when I get the "I'm so sorry......" I'll just have to take that in stride. Fortunately, recovery has given me the ability to feel---damn it :-) My sponsor and support group have been great. But my heart hurts! I miss her so very much.
Just wanted to share where I'm at---it helps to get it out.
Peace and Hugs
Lisa
