Life is more than just life... It is an amazing journey! So many unexpected things have happened since I started school that its hard to know where to begin.
My soulmate and I reconnected a few short months ago. And if you remember my older posts where I blamed myself, not to mention assumed it was all my fault for the things that went wrong, well... I discovered I couldn't have been more wrong. Needless to say, we hardly ever talk anymore because we're both busy with our lives on near opposite sides of the country, but I am thankful for having the chance to say all the things I wanted to say all those years ago.
I also moved into a place of my own where I can focus on myself. However, since I'm not currently working a job with a paycheck, I've been living off of student loans. Believe me, when you're starting from scratch, the funds dry up surprisingly fast. But I have been doing as much freelance work as I can on the side. Only it seems to be interfering with my studies as of late, and I've been forced to cut back. Guess I'm d**ned if I do and d**ned if I don't in that regard, because I'm stuck giving up time to study in order to work gruelling hours to meet the timestable worked out with clients. Getting an education happens to be more of a priority... Except that I still don't manage my time as well as I should, seeing as I'm a terminal procrastinator even now. lol...
All in all, life has been good to me. I have been meeting new people and reconnecting with some old ones. T'is a shame, however, that I still am coping with the power struggle between my slowly-maturing self and my undiciplined inner-child, who, upon occasion, tends to act like a spoiled brat. When expectations that I have don't go my way, I confess that I still take things personally and take it out on myself. You know what I mean... Blaming myself, as if I am the center of the universe (or somebody else's - har...), instead of communicating my disappointments. I guess I'm still having a hard time training my negative self-perception around enough to let go of that victim/martyr complex. But that will happen in due time.
After all, change is inevitable...
Oh, and I did read a rather fascinating quote on Twitter earlier today from Deepak Chopra: "You find your path not by thinking, feeling or doing but by surrendering."
It was weird... The line seemed to have jumped out at me from the corner of my eye when Twitterfox was retrieving the updates. It reminded me that we can overcome our defects with faith.
I guess everything does happen for a reason.
It is up to me to let go of the self-centered notion that I know it all and everything should happen according to my schedule, and quit fearing all will be lost if it doesn't. God knows what I need - and when I need it - more than I do...
Yep, one day at a time. One step at a time.
I am truely blessed! 
