Damn!
I guess I was getting cocky. Have been doing so well, but I have insomnia, probably from sleeping alone, not getting my physical needs met, as Jerry says. It is 3:42 am and I just went down and fixed myself breakfast. I cant do that. My food plan calls for three REGULAR meals, a snack maybe in the afternoon or mid morning if I call my sponsor to discuss it. I did not need food, I needed comfort.
So what do I do now? I guess this is it. I cant call my sponsor in the middle of the night, unless I am getting ready to binge and I have to say that this is not where I am. I still give a damn, ya know? So I am getting this out in the open right now in this blog and I will email my sponsor tonight so she has the message first thing in the morning and then I will call her when I get up. Breakfast? I mean the real, 8 oclock in the morning breakfast?...well I haven't got a clue. That will be decided after I talk to Lyn, my sponsor. She will have to be my rudder.
Right now I am getting the literature out. Literature is probably the weakest tool I use, but in the middle of the night it's what I got. Yuk!! I am so arrogant about reading other people's stuff...it is my big character defect...arrogance. Well, I could do an 11th step, too. That is a lot more appealing than reading, and it always relaxes me.
Right now I am really grateful for this website. It is always here. I know I am not alone even in the wee hours because there are people here from all time zones. That is so great.
I'm gonna go pray. THanks, all you other time zoners!!!!!
Love and lots of hugs...
Nancy
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