Well here it is lets here what kind of feedback is out there today. My status today has a lot to do with this blog. Trying sooooo hard to get out of my head not really working though. I know that we are our own worst enemies but I don't know. My mind is racing I keep telling myself that I don't have to drink today but my head keeps pushing go ahead you have been sober for a while now and a few drinks won't hurt. Why thee F**k do I or we have these insane thoughts. I am not going to drink today but these thoughts are pretty convincing. Especially with the weather today rainy and wet. These thoughts are very irritating. Sorry I make you people read this crap but I don't communicate very well. I think that is because I care way tooo much of what others think of me. Maybe I am not good enough I don't know. Here we go right intop the darn pitty pot feels like it could be a deep one again I hope it does not last too long not sure if I can handle too much of this crap. Thanks for listening everybody I love you all very much. Your friend in recovery I hope at least for today Trent.
