For the past week I have been where my environment has been controlled by someone else, and my needs have been provided for by other people. It was a beautiful place, and there were many benefits, but there were so many ways to not be abstinent...it was just too easy to give in. One of the things this place is famous for is its food. I planned for this, shared my strategy with my sponsor and an OA friend. I just wasnt as successful as I wanted to be. I was truly helpless. Every day I prayed to be better, and looking back, I was. I struggled but I realized that my reactions were the problem, my attitude was the problem. Actually when I shared my week with my sponsor, she pointed out ways I had been successful.

I am so grateful for the help I get from this program. Forgiving myself for not being perfect is part of it. Learning to look at my life and my actions in a positive way keeps me from giving up and quitting.

This morning I had about the best quiet time, the most joyful contact with God. All that natural beauty I was immersed in last week, and it was my own backyard where I found the deepest spiritual serenity.

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