Thanks for sharing!when life gets out of hand I use slogans

&call someone in recovery (if you can't get to a meeting-)we can start our day over any time -it doesn't have to snow ball out of control, but there surely are triggers!

When some one who isn't in recovery says I should" be cured"-

I say "This is a disease"    - like diabetes- and all I have is

one day(-today-) a daily reprieve if I work my program....

Blessings, Nia

Hi,

One thing that really caught my attention in what you just said was in the second sentence: "I've listened to my mother who thinks that I'm now cured and drugs have no problem in my life anymore."

Hey... It's okay, you'll learn how to gain interdependence, try not to be so hard on yourself, I'm still learning. But I find that when I listen to my higher poewr and myself and try not to get taken away by the waves of life (THE UP AND DOWN ROCKY WAVES, flowing with them, getting swayne by everything and letting emotions get the best of me and overreacting and oversensitivity) life is really going to be okay.

Heres a suggestion: When your mom is talking to you, about something you might agree or disagree about, try and not latch onto her idea intensely, dont take it like its her word or its the end of the world. And don't think that just because she's your mom that she knows everything about you INSIDE AND OUT. Let yourself off the hook, don't you deserve it? Breathe, chill. When you don't like what she's saying (difference of opinion about your disease), listen to her, but try and act like the third wheel inside you brain, try and be a listener and not a reactor, you can even say "Mom I value your opinion, i really do, but...". Just be an observer, try it.

You can complain lol, cry, scream, kick, panic , faint, worry, get frustrated, angry, pissed off, raging, self destructive, I hate to tell you this, to burst your bubble..

1. Theres nothing organically wrong with you

2. Everything is going to be okay as long as you stay clean NO MATTER WHAT.

Keep coming back cause we all need eachother!!

Karie

Sweetie, no person will or can ever judge you here. We want to be here for you no matter what. We have all gone through and sometimes the addiction seams stronger than we are. You're stronger than you think. Don't beat up on yourself...learn to love yourself enough to get through all this. I know you don't want to use....that's why it's called an addiction. I know you want to get out of this! You are a beautiful person and worthy of a wonderful life filled with real joy and peace in your heart and soul. You may have to give up the friends who are still using. So what...save yourself!! They will do it when there ready. I see you are so, think enough of yourself to work the program and make yourself well. YOU are worth it! I love you and am praying for you! YOU ARE WORTH A BETTER LIFE!  These are the words I have to tell myself everyday. Yesterday doesn't matter any longer and worring about tomorrow won't help at all. Just think of this very moment in time and don't go into remorce. Just know that you're at this crossroad because God knowes you are worth it and you are!!! Stay in touch please...no matter what okay?

Your sis in recovery..................................Nancy

Glad you came back. As has already been said, If you don't want to use....THEN DON'T. If you feel the want or need to use slipping up on you rush to a meeting as quickly as you can. In the rooms you will find your salvation and freedom to live a clean life. When you think nobody can understand what your feeling or going through your HP will provide that help to you. Keep coming back it works if you work it!

Prayers for you.

Jennifer     

MonicaRae -

     Glad to see you made it back. Looks like they covered all the bases. This is a simple program. Don't use & live, to learn and love. Use & die by inches, hating it all. You mother has good intentions, but normal people can be "cured". If you aren't feeling cured I'd run (don't walk) to the nearest meeting...

YF,

Dennis

If you really don't want to use, then don't.PR offers good advice. Remember, YOU are trusted enough by your HP to have choices. Make some right ones!!

Welcome back.

luv

Dear Monica,

The only way that I know of to keep from using, is to work the program. The way that works for me is to get my butt to meetings where I can hear stories of recovery and occasionally share my own story; get phone numbers of women in the program and use them; and read the Big Book or in your case the NA book.