Today was a very special spring day...I have three children...ages nine, five and 21 months. (Girl. Boy, Girl).  Their mother and I are separated, and my addiction pretty much sealed that deal.  Even while attempting recovery, a lot of the love and affection passed away some time ago.

However (as this is positive, so bear with me!!!)...

Today I took my kids to church with me...had lunch...went to visit my mom with them...and took time out to just watch them play.  To see the simple joy of playing with sticks...picking small flowers...running and playing as children do...and it reminded me of how my Higher Power wants me to see His world...not as some dreary existence...but an adventure!!!!

As the afternoon went on, the youngest child started to fuss some.  She reached her little arms out and looked at me with that pitiful little face...and I picked her up.  She sighed, wrapped her arms around me...and fell asleep.  The other two were smiling at me and hugging me all throughout the day, but it is the youngest who holds my heart the most...Her smile and her little ways melt me and remind me that I am OK...I am valuable...and that I am loved...no matter what...

We all are...if we take the time to realize it...

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