just as a bit of security begins to bloom inside me it schrivels up again.... i thought for a bit that there was some light shinning on my marriage. communication was becoming rather nice, we actually were laughing... i was starting to feel myself smile again, look at me in the mirror and tell myself it is really worth being.............. well last night an acquaintance asked me how i was holding up(this person only knew my husband & i were going through something) "i said so-so, some days are better than others, but things seem to be looking up! "by the look on her face i knew i was wrong... this person said "i asked you because your husband is living with his girlfriend, when he is out with her in public he is not acting like a married man. i actually thought from his behavior you did get divorced." i wanted to die right there on the spot. i came home and cried, screamed, looked at me in the mirror and asked myself is it really worth being at all.......
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