I just had my 7-month anniversary of no drinking. It's been a great 7 months with incredible strides of progress.....weight loss, regular trips to the gym, creative musical expression, promotions at work. I'm fortunate in that I never really hit a rock bottom. I'm what's known as a "high bottom" - a highly functioning alcoholic. Worked for many years (hard) to keep things under control. (yeah, right) We know how THAT works out in the end!
But dreams are their own world, and one can't really take control over them. Last night I dreamt I found a stash of pharmaceutical grade heroin....weird. It was bubble packeted in cardboard sleeves, like samples you get from your doctor. Now, I've never even tried a drug of that magnitude, but I can recall the feeling of exhilaration and surprise, a real temptation to try the drugs. Because, after all, they WERE pharmaceutical and legal samples, right?
I wonder what's really going on inside my head. I have no urge to drink.
It's a good day.
