How will i be "me" without being drunk?

Who is I and who is me. I doesn't want to be me. Listen to the quiet voice inside. And read what Dennis has said! Lots of help and support around. Who wants you to be a drunk? Anyone can do that!

luv

     Yep - the phone weighs 300 pounds and the meeting is too far away. It is a line we all must cross to stay sober. But it becomes easier each time, as you find that you don't have to pay the consequences of that next drink.
      For now there is a huge gaping hole in us that alcohol used to fill, now what do we do? Please, go to that meeting, call that sober friend. It's far easier to walk on unknown ground in the light with a friend instead of in the dark - alone. We need you here, rather than out there...
Dennis

Hang in there.  Your honesty will serve you well.  God Bless,  garrett

"the hot day of weariness lasts not for ever; the sun is
nearing the horizon; it shall rise again with a brighter day than thou
hast ever seen" C.H Spurgeon

None of us, I suppose, are so perfectly happy as to be without some external trials, and certanly it is no easy matter to maintain perpetual joy, at any rate, we souldn't be satisfied until we have shaken off the lethargy and misery, and have come into the proper and healthy state. I know you can do this, unfortunally to find our joy we have to look after, sometimes we have to go trough bitter experiences, but at the end we find the sweetnes or recovery.

Faith never prospers so well as when all things are against her: tempests are her trainers, and lightnings are her illuminators.

Wish you the bests!!!!

Hi Elaine,
What you are most likely experiencing is grief. The loss of our drug of choice, is for many of us the same if not worse than losing a loved one. Many of us have or had been under the influence of some sort of mind or mood altering substance for so long, that we've never felt the full weight of grieving, it's a heavy weight. That said, it will pass if you give it time and work your program. The 12 steps are simple, not easy. We all know what you're going through...hell is what you're going through, don't stop now or h*ll? is where you'll stay. Take it a second at a time, then a minute, an hour, eventually a day at a time will be bearable. Hang in there, call your sponsor, find someone in recovery who's working an honest program. Don't isolate, it only makes it worse. Oh yeah, praying never hurts either. Your friend in recovery, Bob