I am just a bartender.
It is very hard in this business to not drink. I don't drink nearly as much as the other girls at work. But that does not mean very much. I wish that I would have never started drinking because now I constantly feel this feeling that I am missing out by not going to the bar. I started drinking two years ago, and it has gradually become a bigger pain than I ever wanted it to be. I started drinking because I wanted to meet some men. But now I have met one great guy (not a bar... funny huh?) and I cant drag myself out of the bar to spend time with him. He does not drink. He has made me start looking at myself more closely, and made me realize that maybe there is something wrong with me.
And all of these "friends" that I have at the bar, the thing is, I doubt if I called them with an emergency that anyone would be there for me. So what am I doing with my life?
Oh well. This is the first time I have came on here. I don't know what to say, or who is going to read this, or respond. If anyone feels the same as I do.
Christina ***Chris***
Tags: Angry
