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Posted On 12/20/2008 11:56:18 by aNiMaL

Hello,

My butt hurts. Probably not the statement you may have expected from me, eh?

Well, i'm kinda silly ... i walked over to my candlelight meeting last night, making snowballs as i strolled, sometimes climbed over the snow. Kinda chilly out for that with temps in the teens, but oh well. 4 others showed up so that was "cool," ... it made the trip worth it.

Earlier in the day i'd gone sledding, with all the attendent bumps and bounces.

On the way home last night there was this one smooth iron man hole cover that was partially exposed. i stepped on it and revisited my 3 Stooges mentality as, arms and legs flailing, i fell in a heap ... so, yeah, my butt hurts this morning.

Talked with my sponsor earlier this week. He's gone into work a few days this past week. That guy has brass balls ... if i'd have had brain surgery last weekend, i'd probably not have wanted to go to work, especially at his job. Other than some side effects from the chemo, he seems to be doing okay. i don't know if they're doing the radiation, too. Keep praying, okay?

So i'm laying here in front of the computer this morning and i get this e-mail asking about my holiday plans. By any reasonable standard, mine are kind of lame: a 4 hour AA phoneline shift Christmass Eve and 6 hours New Year's Eve, and probably more if things go as they normally do at the Alkathon ... most folks would not consider these to be terribly exciting plans.

So i'm laying here starting to feel a little sorry for myself ... hey, i'm a drunk so i do that crap once in a while ... wondering if i'll ever really be anything but the aNiMaL ... wondering if, yeah, i'll say it, if i'll ever even get laid again ... hey, give me a break, okay ... i haven't gotten any since the Clinton administration ... wondering if God will actually provide the family i desire ... some of you have heard me refer to myself as a "social retard," well, now you know one reason why.

Then i start thinking about my sponsors ... the one i have now and the one who'd passed from cancer a while ago. Dennis R. was a heck of a guy ... he "got to" do service for the Fellowships, most times even enjoying it when folks weren't messing with him ... he "got to" go to camp outs and drag silly guys like me to them ... he "got to" face the final journey in this life with more courage than i see many of us ever have. And Randy "gets to" go to work with sutures in his head ... do i really need to sit here and feel sorry for myself?

Somehow, i just don't think so.

What do you "get to" do this holiday?

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From: Nia
01/02/2009 08:30:32

Open presents! the kid in me doesn't care if it is a bubblegum ring- book-yum,

or candy....I get to spend the holiday with people I love ( even if they let me down or visa versa) and laugh I hope!

I'll continue to pray for all the brave souls trying to beat cancer- I know someone too-

I want to go back to sober dances, used to have a lot of fun at those!   Nia

From: Kariemac
12/21/2008 10:23:31

Hey Kevin, my wanna be Canadian friend eh?
I fell too, on Friday, in a snowbank Timmies (that's how some of us Canadian's refer to coffee where I'm from) in my left hand and a muffin in my right hand.  Unfortunately I fell with my right hand plunging through the snow bank and my muffin didn't look the same after that!! And the coffee splashed all over the snow looked like I vomitted....gross eh?
Tis a tough time of year in the loneliness area for many of us.  I believe I have read in the BB that it is a trait of our character or sometime similar.  I too have suffered from loneliness when I was in a room filled with people who did love me...who? with my family and at the time my (ex)- husband.
Helping others seems like a great idea; for the last 5 seasons I have always been able to attend a Christmas eve meeting if not Christmas day and 3/5 New Year's Eve's gone to a sober dance and had a lot of fun.  I hope you find something to do that fills your heart.  I get the feeling your a guy with a heart.  A relationship of substance will come along when you send the message out to your HP that you are indeed ready for a relationship of the soul.  Until then keep on becoming the man you want to be because I don't believe you are the man you used to be!
Little e-hug ( I am a hand shake kinda lady until I get to know you better)
Karie



From: DisgruntledGurl
12/21/2008 04:34:05

From one socially inept to another, I rather appreciate the odd sense of humor, so don't sweat it.

Glad to hear your sponsor is doing better after the surgery, but he's already gone back to work? WOW! I can't even begin to imagine having to remain awake and having someone dig around my grey matter with a scalpel, but having the energy  after chemo? Ugh... Pretty amazing guy - but I don't think I'd have the balls (figuratively or literally :P).

Hit those meetings... Not only will it keep ya out of your head, but...hey, ya never know!

From: DennisS
12/20/2008 12:25:01

aNiMaL, my friend -
    I get to live. Whatever may happen, I get to deal with it, enjoy it and have fun. It doesn't really matter that much. Whatever it is, it won't involve my drunken insanity and regrets from the past. That's good enough for me. Today.
Hugs,
Dennis

OBTW - Bill probably hasn't either. Hillary surely took care of that...

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