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Posted On 12/20/2008 00:42:39 by Frog

Well for the past few days I have been pretty sad thinking about my little girl and with the holidays on the aproach I am getting really down. I know that it comes with the territory , but man it really sucks.... These feelings really are just not what i want to be feeling right now.... i want to have some gratitude and serenity .... i try to be greatful and stuff but s**t ,I just end up being sad cause i end up thinnking about her. I havent cried either , for a very long time, i am afraid to, i am afraid it will hurt . I know that it is good to let it out but i dont like the feeling that comes with it, the open walls down being vulnerable and not in control. The other thing is that i want to have fun. I want to beable to just kick back and not worry.....ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

ok i am better for now....heheh

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From: Kariemac

12/21/2008 11:48:57

I can sense your pain and agree with the writers below.
Getting it out, not keeping it in is the new way in recovery, I used to think that my grief would swallow me up- if I started to cry I would never stop and I would be out of control. What I have learned is that when I keep it all in and not share my grief I am out of control inside.
Rent O' Yeller it's the saddest dog movie I ever saw- even my brother cried watching it!! Disney made it in the 60's or 70's.
Karie

From: DennisS

12/20/2008 10:56:56 Looks like I get to agree with the girls again. Screw it, cut loose, go ahead and cry. Alone if you so desire. Sometimes a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do. When you stop - you'll feel better. Thats what this whole feeling thing is about. Crying doesn't change the world around you - but it sure can change how you look at it after you dry your tears... Take care, Dennis

From: Nia

12/20/2008 07:31:15 All our feelings are connected a breath and thought a part- I don't enjoy crying but it is cleansing- healing and we need it...'this too shall pass'... We can also use our other feelings to help us out of a 'mood'-if we are accepting ( not manipulation/ avoidence) anger can get us out of fear( unfrozen) gratitude can bring us up from sadness sadness and joy hold hands-

From: DisgruntledGurl

12/20/2008 04:27:14 Jess is dead-on about that. This time of year is always the worst for me when it comes to grief. Moreso when I'm isolating and getting stuck in my head. Not a pretty picture... It's okay to let yourself feel the loss, as long as you don't dwell on it. Hope tomorrow is brighter for ya.

From: flowerchildofjc

12/20/2008 02:19:56

Holidays can be the worst, especially when you are missing a family member and/or loved one. Allowing yourself to feel feelings so you can gain some acceptance towards them instead of just wallowing in them is a fine art of which I have yet to master. I recommend watching a sad or emotional movie by yourself to get a good cry going, and then it doesn't feel so personal- kind of like your crying for the characters instead of yourself. Tricking your mind to allow your soul to cleanse itself:)
God Bless
-Jessie

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