If there is one thing i know, recovery is an action thing.... staying clean is only part of the solution... but with the ecconomy being so sh**ty. and being in such a small town i find it hard to get work esspecially with a car that is not so reliable. i know that in my blog i should have been more thorough , but i was just getting something off my chest and thanx for responding it helped.

yes i have. working the 12 steps is not an automatic license for a better financial life...i so wish it were.....lol

You go to meetings. Do you let people in? Have you honestly given it a full shot to not just stay clean, but to get a life back? Recovery is a journey of action! Lots of support here!

luv

I had 6 months in 07/08.  It was a miricle!  During that time I was worried about money. The consequences. It would be nice if we could just drink/use and our lives would snap back into place seamlessly. But it doesn't work that way. I've had many consequences to deal with. Mostly as a result of little decisions I made in around using/drinking.  It's all part of the learning. I'm still learning. Right now I'm not even in recovery. I'm trying to "manage" my drinking until 08 is over. I know I'll regret this. I know I am powerless over my drinking and will waste money try to make myself feel better. Right now I am pretty drunk. I don't feel better. I am numb. And what is that but a cheap thrill".  Nothing. I have done it all before. And will wake tomorrow with a headache. Same old. I yearn for something better. In 09 I will reach towards the light. If I am spared and don't  self destruct in the meantime. I wish you the peace and guidance to make the right decision.