Well, it's been several months since I posted here. Nothing new. I'm still hanging onto my alcoholic friend, hoping for a change for the better. Sometimes I lose hope.
   A couple days ago, the Veteran's Hospital called me, said he had checked himself in. They said his alcohol level was unbelievably high. Asked me if I thought he was suicidal. I really had to THINK before answering. Don't know if I gave the right answer. He had told them I am his fiance, a bald-faced lie. I told them I believe he will eventually drink himself to death but that I didn't think he was going to do it TONIGHT. Now I feel guilty. Perhaps, had I said, yes, I feel he is suicidal, they would have kept him, against his will for detox. I DID, however, tell the nurse who called me, that when he is released, he finds beer in the hospital, and is drunk before he even walks out their door. She admitted that is a problem at the VA hospital.
   Should I refuse to see him? He shows no tenderness toward me. We are merely friends. I feel that I am one of a very few friends that he has. This puts an uncomfortable weight on me. This relationship is not good for me or my health, and yet, I can not push him out of my life.Â
