Today is Thanksgiving ......hope and pray all of you had a blest one. As far as me....well, I'll be relieved for this day to be over. This is the first day of the holiday season that I will be "celebrating" without my ALO and I have to tell you all...its painful as hell. My heart is sooo empty and lost right now.....the emotional pain is overwhelming right now. I had been doing so well for a few wks....working my program, reaching out here and another site that I fellowship with.....but these special days are going to be difficult for me this year. I think if I am able to get through this first holiday season...then next year will be much easier. I think that it hurts so much is cause today is Thanksgiving....in a couple of wks., he and I would have celebrated 2 yrs. together....then we go into Christmas and then New Year's.
I haven't physically seen my ALO in over a month and I truly miss him. We both have our issues.....we both are still far from being healthy.....but I miss him. Today, my son and I were alone here at home. I did cook though....but still its not the same. Nothing against my son,but I just miss us being apart of something......my ALO and his sons would have been here if we were still together. Its just a really difficult time for me,emotionally speaking,right now. Please keep me in your prayers......thanks for letting me vent and release.....love you all!
