I know its bad I know its wrong
god what was I thinking. I Couldn't help but find out how their doing.  My old using buddies.
and so I logged onto my old myspace for the first time in months, I read all those old emails, who I used to be. "ohh s**t man, Im tripp'n fuck'n balls bro, we dropped A all night..."
and on it goes, on and on and on. I emailed an old friend they miss me, they want me to come back, and go on beer runs, and be who I used to be, and It feels like im stuck in two worlds, one in my head full of all those f**ked up memories, full of sin, and yes... good times, yet the world around me feels empty, as a cage.  seeing there faces was so surreal, all those hazy eyes... uggg i feel sick.  I want to hide, and forget all those things, and mostly, the aching temptation, digging its claws into my brain, screaming, yelling. driving me insane. boy it would feel nice just to sit back and be the good ol' me again, joint in hand, surrounded by my street lovers, take a hit, and drift into a blissful high. kill me now, wont I ever be happy again???
what have I done. what have I done.
