I had a slightly uneasy feeling this morning. Strange but it reminded me a bit of that morning after feeling which was all-too-familiar to me when I drank - guilt or regret over something I’d said or done which was out of place...too much self disclosure maybe, or too much distortion or bias.
When I was in the shower I got to thinking about the blog I wrote yesterday. I know it was overlong and there was nothing positive or happy in there... It was basically me using pen and paper (or in this case, keyboard) as therapy or as a way of letting go of uncomfortable or unwanted thoughts. I have always done this in some form. And in recovery especially I think it’s helpful and it’s better out of your head and on paper with some kind of logical structure, than inside swirling around and snowballing into something more irrational...
Having said that I am aware that what I wrote was probably little more than a pointless rant from the point of view of another person reading it. Maybe in future I should step back a bit and keep in mind that I am on a recovery site here - people are looking for some love and light to feed their souls, or at least something to inspire them as they go about their day and that they will feel better after reading. I also had this afterthought that what if some newcomer had read what I wrote? Would it discourage them from going forward with their recovery?!
It might have been better if I had at least put some kind of disclaimer or warning at the top of the page. And I will do that next time, if/when.. Or create a new tag - “rant” or “read at own risk”!
It only seems to happen with negative moods that I can just write pages and pages that almost go on forever. If I am in a happy phase, then I am busy doing other stuff - actually LIVING 
But I guess yesterday was just one of those days and I just needed to get some stuff out...
I will aim to gather some positive thoughts and ideas for the next time I share...
...hope to hear much, much more from you!