so, i should be studing for a test i have at 1pm, but you know i was having a weird day. i enjoy that i have a choice to wake up early, drink coffee and watch the view before i go to school. and i have been in a weird place because i went to a meeting last night and i really dont like some peoples recovery. i have the choice of liking certain peoples truthfullness and others who just are abstinant and not work their program but have years clean and have no program. i just dont understand it, i didnt get clean to live the same lifestyle as when i was dirty. you know i want to proactivly work on myself so i can be the best that i can be. i just dont understand that people want to live so sickly. i would be getting high if i liked how sick i was. but i donno it is just a ramble and i am very proud of the accomplishments i have made clean. and that i am ablle to stick around because i choose not to get high today.....
love all
peace 
Tags: Choice Recovery Honesty