Hi
I am new here and this is my first attempt at a blog entry. Ever - anywhere. I heard from a friend about this site and logged on, made a profile and told myself that I will try to write regular blogs... we'll see how long I will manage to do that.
Today I will not be able to share very much, I am en route to the Swiss Convention. There will be a Press Conference, where I am supposed to represent my area of NA. It has been a while since I had to do something like that. They told me that the press and politicians will be attending. So I need to look and talk well, in order for the audience to believe that NA is a program that works. hmm... So I am thinking, what if I feel like shit... do I still smile and say how wonderful recovery is? do I still say this is where I want to be in my life right now? - Of course I do! It might not be honest concerning my current state of mind, but this press event is not about my personal recovery but rather a demonstration of how the program works and for whom. I want to carry the message of NA to these people. Not my own personal message, but rather the message of NA. Not my issues, my problems or my opinions on outside issues and - believe me - I have plenty of them. I want to carry a message of hope even though I might not feel great. Because if I take a step back from myself and look at what the program has done for me - it is not difficult to see... So I serve the fellowship by displaying something that I might not entirely feel at that moment, but which I know is there.
The funny thing that happens when I do service in this way, just like when I share with a sponsee or even at a meeting is that whatever state of mind I am in, it changes. I become more recovery oriented and focus less on my daily problems. hmmm... suddenly my day looks brighter. I am more focused on the good parts of my life and believe that recovery is possible - one day at a time.
This is what service can do for me.
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