My recovery It has taken me 20 year and 3 months for me to come to the realisation that what i have,had not only affected myself but my imediate family although i have taken steps to deal with this disease it is with a deep sence of sadness that i feel that i have wasted so much of my life trying to battle with a demon on my own only to learn that sometimes it don't have to be like that with all the things going on in my head i had never ever considered that my problem (alchoholism ) is treatable some questions i asked myself ; how was i unable to stop even though at every turning point with all my heart i made that choice and failed time and time again why had i become the person i most dispised in the world who looked out at me and cringed at what i did and what i was told i didwas i destined to be like this allways was i not to give my life some purpose to be that person that i so wanted to be .. well that was almost 4 months ago.Somehow somewhere when i was at my lowest one element of clarity came into my life and has taken me to places i never dreamt i would be at ...more questions : why was i given this chance and for what reason .why were certain people put in my path to aid me well to be honest i don't really undestand it but through all of this i have acceptence and faith and for that i will be forever gratefull     

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