Thank you Ken. Because of this, I have actually been doing research into what most people throughout history perceive love and it's different facets, to be...very interesting actually. Nice to know that my ideas and ideals are right in keeping with the majority. I am not crazy!

I have also come to the realization that the truth of the matter, is he has no idea what real love is because his addictions prevent him from knowing and experiencing it in it's complete form.

However, this brings me back to the reality..that he has made a decision for himself to not continue our relationship and that leaves me with my own decision to make. My choices are to continue to hang onto a relationship with a man that for whatever reasons, doesn't want to continue and doesn't have the comittment, or to commit to myself and my own needs for a change. I choose ME!

I will have good days and I will have bad days where I miss him nearly every minute, but I know that God will not let me suffer more than I can handle, more than that which will make me stronger in the end.

Thanks again

I am so sorry this happened to you, but there is nothing wrong with how you're feeling. It's normal to grieve over something or someone that has been lost. Loss isn't something I'm good at coping with, but I hope that you are able to find peace. aLEJ has some very good things to say in this regard, things I should use to helping myself with my own unresolved grief.

You're not alone girlie. Hit me up if you ever wanna talk... Hang in there.

aLEJ,
Your words and prayer brought me to tears, thank you so much. I have a meeting planned for tomorrow. thanks, again...