I must concur with Dennis. The way I understand it is once the 'pink cloud' wears off, we find ourselves in grief for what we have 'lost'. And it's okay to feel that way... We lost something we were comfortable with - something that was a part of us. Heck, I still wrestle with acceptance and letting go.

Here's an article that you may find interesting: Grieving the Losses in 12 Step Recovery.

I hope you feel better...

Michelle, I so agree with all the wonderful support you have gotten from the ANGELS from Recovery....

and as Dennis said... you are Grieving for so Much.....

You have found a Safe Place to Grief@@@

and although we are not physically with you, God is, and we are with you in Spirit....

God Bless!

you are a Gift!

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jodyB

Everyone here has said wonderful things. I'm in year 3 of sobriety and still deal with issues with drinking. It's going to be a lifelong process in which God will lead.  There will be good days and bad days, but you will learn to deal with them without drinking.
Hang in there sweetie. We are all here for support!
Tina

Dennis nailed it (as usual ) and I also have gone through that very feeling, its as if we expect a sparkly new person in sobriety but slowly realise this is not reality, we are the same person, minus the booze!

Stay strong, dont let the devil get the better of you, fight the urges and work the steps, stay close to your sober friends and learn from their experiences, come here and blog away or ask for help, you will get it.  Dont look back, as it always seems to be with rose tinted spectacles, I used to think I was the life and soul of every party, not the disgusting, booze addled, sprawled out hag I actually was .

Its a learning curve and you must realise that, we are all on the curve, we are all working it, you are very lucky to have come into the programme young, remember how many years of torment this will save you (I have said it before and ill say it again, I wish I had realised sooner!)

I am here for you, stay strong x

Dear Michelle,

Thanks for sharing this. You are not alone...I too have been experiencing what feels like a downward spiral but I know "This too shall pass". Any day that we don't pick up is a success...however it feels!
A friend of mine told me a couple of months back "It doesn't matter so much how you are feeling, as how you are doing" If you're not drinking, you are doing VERY WELL.
Hang in there...things will get better...you are a miracle!
God bless you
Angela 

blessings and strength, Michelle, as your weeks of slow recovery with the highs and lows ebb and flow.....a very, slow, steady but sure process....and crying out for strength is half the battle.....lifting you up for strength.....................pr

Michelle -
     A friend here said something that makes sense to me. Early in recovery (after the newness wears off), we find ourselves grieving for our former life, like a old friend lost. Not that we want it back, just that it is gone and the hole that is left hasn't been filled - yet. This too will pass.
     You are also dealing with not only the renewal of feelings, but far deeper emotions than before. Just like when we first learn to walk, it takes time to master them. Take it, and be kind to yourself...

YFIR,
Dennis