There is a school of thought that says you should only share positive messages with other addicts in order to share hope and recovery, they probably have enough misery and failure all by themselves without someone who is supposed to be experienced dragging them down.
I'm sorry but I think I got expelled from that particular school.
And I am going to wallow. Well here I am in a fellowship of MEN, and guess what I have discovered? I will tell you, I am addicted a lot around men, particularly if I allow myself to a)get into close and intimate friendships with them b)spend any time at all alone with them and c) get physically affectionate. And I fell off the wagon by allowing myself to get a little bit too fond of a very dear very kind man who has been very helpful to me. That is no problem to him as I am probably a good 45 years too old for him to be attracted to me. He's ok, I'm in pieces.
And I feel like I am going to explode with anger and frustration and disappointment and disillusionment and envy of brothers who can support one another without emotions getting in the way and deep despair because I so want to be a part of this fellowship and I need some support and I need to be sponsored like everyone else. And there are so many women out there like me who can't cope with male dominated meetings where they have to feel neglected or get tempted.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh!
Ok somebody say something positive. Cara
