You will decide
on a matter
and it will be
established for you,
and light will shine
on your ways.

JOB 22:28

I didn't feel like writing a blog today because I had no idea what to write about. I remembered then that this daily writing is a decision I made for myself to practicing consistency of actions, accountability (I'm not always good about using the telephone), a way to keep myself on the straight and narrow and also, to practice my writing.

About decisions - the last couple of days have been rather unproductive for me. I indulged my innate laziness, and fell into isolation again. Maybe I needed the time out and needed to spend time with myself, but too much of such behavior causes me discomfort. I start to feel guilty and as if things are getting out of control. Last night, before I went to bed, I asked God to help me to do better today.

I got up feeling refreshed and ready to put some more energy into my life, as in, make a plan for the day and carry it out one step at a time. And that's what I've been doing, consequently feeling much more comfortable in my own skin - hurray.

The meeting at lunchtime was interesting. We were talking about the self-destructiveness of an addict and about the importance of being good to one's self. Almost everyone talked about procrastination and how things had to get pretty uncomfortable, "Kick in the arse uncomforable" for the key of willingness to be picked up again and the "into action" mode to be once more adopted. Phew...it's good to know that I am not alone!

I suppose all things are possible once I make a DECISION and then follow it through. The energy provided comes from my Higher Power, once my willingness is established.

Thank you for my sobriety today

Peace to you all

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