The suggestion has been made that I consider "bringing it forward ". Reviewing my emphasis toward the 'recovery' end of my 'story' when I speak....
Considerations for " What it is like now"
What elements of the program have really worked for me? Steps! Service...
Progress :Lessons learned-improvement-
First I think of defects and short comings- Patience has been a glaring one. It is better . I can look back and see my letting go of 'results'
has really been tempered by living in the moment & today- " What can I do about this ( problem) now?"
Anger-slow burn usually- when I blow It flares and passes. Depression,is less. Resentment doesn't get much chance to develop-
Forgiveness? improving, but still needs work.Acceptance ? better-
Fear- Iam less prone to long bouts of 'nameless' worry. Faith steps in
quicker . Some of it again comes to letting go, doing what I can today-
Geographic cures: I might go around the block- but I don't have to flee the state!
Likewise my Gratitude has become much more immediate, broader in scope.
Listening- to others and 'emptiness' in meetings-has been pretty good because I can check 'life problems at the door' hang them on the 'coat rack' when necessary. Sure, I can share at a discussion- when appropriate- but
it is important to know where sharing things "belongs". I don't "dump" my
problems, I'm more selective today.
Peaceful, serenity- Iam 'reasonably' content. My basic needs are well taken care of . Things have been simplified, pared down to pretty reasonable levels.
willingness -good reaching out and better at asking for help- so 'false pride'
is lessened I don't have to go it 'alone'...however Iam still hesitant about trust- it still takes watching and listening...
Openness, Change-still needs improvement. I take suggestions, implementing it is slower than it could be...
Self confidence- the ability to sell yourself (vis-a-vis) self employment-
doesn't feel very bold- but being in the service industry I can put experience
'out there' verbally better than, in a resume, for instance...
Empathy and compassion have always been strong points- If anything they are toned done a little, which doesn't make them 'less'- just resonate more maneagably.
Choices ? I have matured a bit-I am better at rational evaluations...
So does the program work ? Have I grown? - yes- do I still have work
to do ? Oh Yes!
Next : I can look at the 'events' I have gone through in Recovery and apply
these things to my story-
Tags: Experiencestre Ngth Hope
