What does it really matter?
You spend every moment doing everything you can to make someone else happy. You sacrifice things you never thought you would, things that you swore you wouldn't, just to make someone else happy. Is it ever really worth giving everything you have to another, when in the end all they are going to do is take the best part of you and crush it! When all they are going to do is whatever makes them happy, totally oblivious to pain they are causing!!
I cannot even begin to describe how it feels to look into another's eyes, knowing they see the hurt and pain in yours, and they go about their day as if it doesn't matter. They say things, things that would probably seem innocent to another, and you just want to run out the door and keep running. They do things, that may seem innocent to another, all the while knowing and not caring that it hurts someone. When a person changes so much, in such a short time, and they are no longer the person you thought they were. Were they ever really that person to begin with? Or is it just something you wanted to see?
When you start becoming someone else, do things and act differently, in hopes that that person will notice you....love you. When you fight for every breath you take, when it's a struggle just to make it through the day, and it never matters in the end. The person you are fighting so hard for, is fighting for another, and no matter how hard you try...nothing ever changes. In the end, the harder you try, the harder you push that person away because in the end, you weren't what they really wanted anyways.
So I ask again....what does it really matter?
