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Posted On 08/07/2008 17:31:56 by hoofie

I guess I didn't totally realize that people actually read this stuff. I completely forgot I wrote that blog last night.

The boyfriend went from wanting to go out to a hookah bar tonight to not even wanting to see me tonight in a matter of five minutes. I think something happened at work. I don't think he's mad at me, I just hate knowing he's upset or disgruntled about something, and I don't know what it is, nor can I do anything about it.

Not that I can do anything about anything anyways.

I'm still going back and forth about telling my mom about this little "problem" I have.

I remember thinking when I'd be really depressed before I was legally able to acquire alcohol, that it's a good thing I couldn't get it easily, or else I'd be f***ed. I was probably 15 or 19 or something? Now I can get it, and my situation is worse, in that I'm all alone in my house care/caregiving duties to my mother and my friend/mentor/father is gone.

Okay, I should go to the grocery store. I should probably dump out my vodka when I get back.



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From: jd
08/08/2008 21:00:16

like your french.  ;)  think sober.

From: serenity_angel
08/08/2008 04:42:59

We read them because we care, and we try to help others who suffer in the ways that we have suffered.

The advice I gave on the other blog still stands, I myself suffer from horrific clinical depression so I certainly know the pain of it, and also about self medicating with alcohol. 

I am here for you x

From: DennisS
08/07/2008 20:01:19

     That is one drawback (if you desire privacy) of these sites , you blog - everybody else reads. And comments. Offers experience, strength and hope.
 Do yourself a favor - find an AA meeting or get in touch with someone that is in the fellowship and visit a few meetings. Keep an open mind and listen. It may be the kindest thing you ever do for yourself. You'll never have to be alone again...

Take care,
Dennis

From: crow73
08/07/2008 18:42:17

For me that "little problem" became a HUGE problem in my life. Before I knew it I was drinking so much I would black out! I would wake up, and not remember a thing the night before! So grateful I'm no longer living like that anymore! Don't leave before the miracle happens...As long as you're breathing, there's still hope! Take care
--Angie Fallowfield

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